I only wish I knew then.

Only if I knew back in the day what the Lord was going to do in my life…I wish I knew then but I wonder if I still would’ve worked out the same way?He definitely works in mysterious ways.I love how the Lords brings all together and what the enemy meant for evil the Lord turns it for good. 3 For this reason I, Paul, the prisoner of Christ Jesus for you Gentiles— 2 if indeed you have heard of the dispensation of the grace of God which was given to me for you, 3 how that by revelation He made known to me the mystery (as I have briefly written already, 4 by which, when you read, you may understand my knowledge in the mystery of Christ), 5 which in other ages was not made known to the sons of men, as it has now been revealed by the Spirit to His holy apostles and prophets: 6 that the Gentiles should be fellow heirs, of the same body, and partakers of His promise in Christ through the gospel, 7 of which I became a minister according to the gift of the grace of God given to me by the effective working of His power.Ephesians 3:1-7Thanks to Jesus that He willingly gave His life on the cross, we now have access to the Father and the Holy Spirit.7 Nevertheless I tell you the truth. It is to your advantage that I go away; for if I do not go away, the Helper will not come to you; but if I depart, I will send Him to you. 8 And when He has come, He will convict the world of sin, and of righteousness, and of judgment: 9 of sin, because they do not believe in Me; 10 of righteousness, because I go to My Father and you see Me no more; 11 of judgment, because the ruler of this world is judged.John 16:7-11 How many years I spend worrying about the meaningless things, but now Lord you turn anxiety into trust, pain into dancing, sorrow into joy, tears into laughter, depression into worship. You’re always on time. Jesus how you lifted me up from my failures and you always kept bringing me back. You never run away from runways. Today I wasn’t feeling the bestest but as soon as a heard this song today during worship time at my church THE PROMISE CENTER, I just felt your love being pure over my life: “I remember how You providedHow You held me through the nightAnd I remember how You sustained meWhen You stepped in to save my lifeHow many hours, days, months and years wasted so I thought but if it wasn’t for those days I would’ve have never missed you. Sometimes we need to stray away in order to know God in a different way. Some people like me we need physical prove but not anymore I believe because I have faith in Him the one who parted the waters is the someone that waited patiently for 5 years outside my window. “If I knew then what I know nowI would be still and let You work it out”Oh man, I only wish I knew then what I know now!How many brokenness could’ve been avoided.How many fights and empty bitter conversations. Now I know you’re always on time, the reason behind all those brokenness it was you refining me.It was so much that you made me knew again. I still remember 10 years ago when I went under the waters and you ripped apart the old me that put a new heart and you filled me with your Holy Spirit. I still remember and this song “always on time reminds me that I questioned so many times if you were still hearing me and if you were still around me even when I decided not to let you be in my life for so long and this lyrics bring me so much joy that:“There's never been a day, never been a minuteNever been a moment that You weren't in itThere's never been a time that You didn't see me through, GodSo I worship You”Yes, Lord I worship you! You were there during those times when I could’t see the door, when I thought my life was over, when I needed strength and a supernatural breath of life just surrounded me out of nowhere it was You, it has always been you Lord. Thank you Jesus for never let me alone. Even when I’m in an empty room I know that you’re here with me. 

11/30/2025